Psych Ward Poesies: P1

My heart aches every time I see your face
But still I stare
You’re smiling
Fuck, that smile
I can’t catch my air
I want to be the one to brighten your day
I want to feel your light
And bask in your warm embrace
Someone else enjoys your sweet taste now
How many times can my heart break
Over and over and over again
A piece of me dies, every time
How long must I perish
How long till the rest of me crumbles
My existence is torture.
I welcome my decease.

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I’m on fire
Burning alive
Suffocating
It’s all my fault
You never wanted me
But I told myself you did
The fantasy absorbed me
Now look
I’m on fire
Burning to death
Meanwhile, you’re fine

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Why did you leave me
What did I do
Just kidding
I know the answers
I don’t deserve your love
I don’t deserve anyone’s love
BPD