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April 27, 2020

Nothing Makes Sense

By Rhonda

I am in love with you. You say you are in love with me too. You say you are. You say. You are.

Are you? Are you in love with me too? I want to believe that you are, but we just met. What the fuck? We just met.

How can we already be in love? That makes no sense. No fucking sense. Nothing makes sense though, so who cares if it doesn’t make sense. Right?

The moment I saw your face, I was drawn to you. I was in love. Before you even said hello, I knew I needed you. I was in love.

Either one of us could fall out of love at any moment. We don’t know each other. This could all be just a figment of our imaginations – my imagination. Not real love.

I don’t believe it though. I know we just met, but I don’t believe it. My feelings are real. Your feelings are real. This is real love. This has to be real love.

I’ve never felt anything like this. I think about you all the time. Constantly. Never again will I think about anything else. Even if I wanted to, my mind is stuck on you.

The moment I saw your face, my life was changed forever. I was in love. Before you even said hello, I knew my life depended on you. I was in love.

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April 27, 2020

Face First into the Pavement

By Rhonda

Today I got stoned and started thinking about you. No surprise there. You got me wrapped around your finger. I’m high on your validation. I can’t breathe when you sweet-talk me. If you said I love you, I’d say I love you too. Because I’m addicted to this high, and I know it’s not right, but it feels right. 

It shouldn’t feel right.

But it does.

So, here I am, thinking about you. Again. No matter what I do, I can’t stop thinking about you. Do you think about me too? I doubt it. Why would you think about me too? You don’t know me, I don’t know you. This is all just a figment of my imagination. But still, my feelings run deep, I can’t control them. My soul longs for you. How fucking pathetic is that?

I am fucking pathetic.

But you? You’re just having fun.

This is all just a game to you. You know better, you know to keep your feelings intact. You know we can’t be together, so you didn’t let yourself fall. Me on the other hand, I fucking fell face first and busted my mouth on the pavement.

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